My daughter is everything to me. I'm overwhelmed by how much I love her, how grateful I am to be in her life, and how much joy there is in seeing her learn and grow.
But what really brought my heart to my throat is the ache of wanting my adopted children to be with me now. Jed and I have talked about adoption since we were engaged and we had our first meeting with a representative of the Utah Foster Care Foundation in March. We're still a year or two away from becoming licensed to foster/adopt- but I feel so strongly that this is the direction for our family to go. I love where our family is at right now and want to enjoy it. We had talked about adopting before having any biological children but I will forever be grateful to have had this time at home with Mae. She may be the only baby I have from infancy and I have cherished every day we've been together. That said, I'm so sure she's going to have older siblings.
I think that's why her blog post hit me so hard. There's too much suffering in this world and an unfair amount of it is on children who grow up feeling like they will never be enough. There's a sadness for all of them, but also an ache for the one, or two, or three that may join our family. I want to hold them and help them to know that they are amazing, beautiful, smart, capable, and full of infinite worth and potential.
Oh God, let them know they're loved. Help them know that someone is waiting and aching for them.
